Let me start with this…. I’m 24 weeks pregnant with my second child. It took some serious persuading my husband on my part, since he was perfectly content with just our one little princess, so I’ve been working on him for over a year to win him over for another one.
I got my IUD out, had a period 2 months later, and BOOM! That’s all it took. Totally excited to expand our little family… seeing that positive pregnancy test again was even more exciting and a little less scary than I think it was the first time 4 years ago. You know how it is, you want to shout it to everyone from the rooftops, especially for the first few weeks.
And then…. the nausea. And the fatigue. Oh. My. Goodness. Like a freight train, how did I block out how awful I felt the first time around?! It was like a complete U-turn from how I had been feeling. And I’m pretty sure I had a bump at 5 weeks (P.S.- not actually possible since the baby is low in your pelvis until 12 weeks). Maybe all of this was overshadowed by the excitement of a first pregnancy, or it’s the way our bodies block out discomfort, so the species goes on and we don’t decide “screw this I’m not doing this again”?!
Let’s be honest, sometimes pregnancy sucks! There are definitely women who are lucky and sail right through with absolutely no symptoms, and I am absolutely not one of them. I hate to even admit it, but there have definitely been a few fleeting moments where I have thought “why did I want to do this again?” And then feel super guilty for letting it even cross my mind!
Then I look at my little girl, and remember of course this is why, and it’s all worth it! The vomiting, the extreme fatigue, the weight gain, giving up sushi and other delicious foods, sleepless nights with pregnancy insomnia or being up urinating every hour, and any other symptoms depending on the person, all worth this precious little life sitting in front of me right now.
My best friend gave me the best advice when she was pregnant, actually before I even became pregnant with my first child, and I think of that whenever I start to really feel sorry for myself. “Just keep in mind that there are thousands of women who would kill to feel as crappy as you do who can’t get pregnant.” So I harness that, and just enjoy the ride!