Whew! We did it. We survived. Well, so far at least. In the past four weeks I went back to work after staying at home for two years. My husband’s job transferred him to Reno, so he is commuting from Carson City every day. Our four-year-old son went from part-time to full-time pre-K and our ten-month-old daughter began attending daycare full-time. When it rains, it pours.
I’m exhausted. Beat. Tired. Pooped. Put a fork in me because I’m done! However, I’m worn out in a good way. I’m so happy to be back at work and using my brain in a different way. Having adult conversations and responsibilities not involving the kids is wonderful. Staying at home, while good for the kids, was not easy for me. I’m much better being a working mom than a stay at home mom. I’m glad I did, though. Life has been crazy the past few weeks. It’s been full of transitions. Some changes have been easy and some have been hard.
Life is busier than ever, and I feel like I can’t catch up, which is difficult for my super-organized self. I like creating lists and checking off my tasks. Problem is, there are hardly any check marks on my lists. I don’t feel like I’m drowning, but I’ve realized my priorities have shifted. Things that I used to have time for might have to wait or not happen at all. This is what I have to come to terms with. Life is not going to slow down; it’s going to speed up. We have two kids now, two careers, two dogs, a cat and a mortgage. There are going to be activities, parties, practices, functions and lessons galore. Not to mention all the things that have to be done around the house – oh yeah, and a marriage too!
The saying, “The days are long and the years are short” is so true – I better make the most of it. Lately, I feel like I need my lists more than ever, but if something isn’t checked off, maybe that’s a good thing. Maybe that means I’m doing more living than planning.